well happy belated turkey day...thanksgiving break and what not. i worked at trader joe's on the weekend and took a test in my japanese class just as soon as i got back from vacation. and i can tell you my head is hurting still from it. christmas is coming up and i have hardly any funds. so much for buying presents. i'm pressing for more hours this christmas season, but i hope that i can quit soon. trying to find a decent paying job is really hard especially up in san francisco. so we'll see about that! :P *crosses fingers* on a great note, i can say that i have been blessed with the most giving and wonderful man who has helped me numerous times through the good and bad. or else i would have gone bonkers by now o____O.

urgh been a while since i last wrote here. basically i have been studying and working. my wedding plans are suspended for another six months. sigh. we found a nice place to hold the reception, really gorgeous. however, i have to wait until i have more money. i passed my midterm at least, but messed up as far as the listening comprehension...i wasn't listening. so i have a b in my class. now i have a cold...and i have to go to work at 1pm. i hope they send me home cuz i feel like crap, coughing and weezing...nose dripping and sniffling. Oh yeah, I wanna sell people food!! :P

Ugh, I am really tired. Yesterday, I went straight from my japanese class, practically running to Bart from Balboa Park, Got to Daly City Bart to get on the Samtrans 120 to Colma Bart, and then get to work on time at 3pm. I had to do this in a span of half an hour. Class ended at 2pm, I got on Bart at 215, Caught the bus at 230, and got to work at 236. :P I made it....needlessly to say...I expended a lot of energy and money. And the store closed at 9, I did a fat shopping cart run for the grocery store I work at, stayed at work until 10pm, and stayed outside until 1035. o_o Erghh.....oh well, Dave made it to pick me up even if I did get off work at 10pm. I was on the verge of tears cuz I was so tired and so worried about him being late. Finally returned home, I ate a late dinner in my pajamas and went to bed at 1230am. Too much running around...so little time to do it.

Well, today I have work. 3-1030. At least, it's not to 11pm or 3am. So, I guess I shouldn't complain then. Then, I have an entire weekend to look forward to. Yay, my first weekend in a while. Woohoo! *dances wildly* I'm gonna spend time with my family in Union City and spend it with Dave too. I love him :B *huggles* Time to get cavities now. :P

In these last two months, I was deciding on my future:

a) I wanted a career.

b) I wanted to learn something new.

c) I am planning to get married to someone with whom I love with all my heart in the coming year. David,

aishiteru!

My Plan of Action:

a) I am getting my web design certificate from sessions.edu or san francisco state university's multimedia studies program.

b) I am taking NIHONGO at City College of San Francisco.

c) I have still much wedding planning to do! o__O And such a tiny budget to work with! I've been looking for reception halls, so far I only viewed one. $1,700 is affordable, but I'm looking for something more nice or less expensive and nice. That is, if I can find something without having to resort to copying someone else's reception digs. Don't wanna do that! O___o I have to strive to be different!

I would have never thought that something halfway across the country and right in my own backyard would influence me so much. I guess I am afraid of my own mortality. And maybe also, of loosing sight on what it means to live. I used to think that, "Oh the U.S. government sucks..." But so far, I'm kinda glad we have the government we do have and not a dictatorship ruled by one religious clan. It is some pretty scary shit if you ask me. That ominous Tuesday in San Francisco Area where I live with my fianc�, David, I remember hearing about it with disbelief and feeling pretty damned selfish for being lazy and not wanting to go to the language lab to study my japanese at City College of San Francisco before class. But, the College was closed that day, so I got a reprieve. But, I still feel selfish.... :P